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December 7, 2006
\nThursday<\/strong><\/p>\n

\"HolidailiesEvery year I tell myself that this is not going to happen, that I’ll plan better, and though every year things improve, I still fall into the same patterns of yielding to distraction and losing focus.<\/p>\n

Holiday preparation caught up with me today. I’ve let myself\u00c2\u00a0neglect useful routines that promote both physical and mental health. I’ve stopped reading, I’ve stopped the kind of moodling<\/em> writing that I usually do in the early mornings, and I’ve stopped eating well. I got to my Thursday morning spiritual study group having consumed about a quarter of a loaf of King’s Hawaiian Bread (Buy One Get One Free at the Giant this week!) liberally spread with butter. At the session I ate probably five little pecan tarlets (they are<\/strong> small) while feeling awkward while everyone made their plans for next week’s annual outing to a buffet and matinee. I wrote last year<\/a> about how I do not enjoy this event and\u00c2\u00a0how I wished to skip it but didn’t know how to do so gracefully. This\u00c2\u00a0year I just didn’t say yes the day we took the count, and nobody seemed concerned. And I do see the absurdity of wishing faintly that someone had tried to talk me into going.<\/p>\n

I’ll come back from this and get back into the joy of the season soon. But for today, I’m just a lump.<\/p>\n

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