{"id":11,"date":"2005-01-02T07:16:35","date_gmt":"2005-01-02T14:16:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/archives\/11"},"modified":"2006-07-19T07:20:32","modified_gmt":"2006-07-19T14:20:32","slug":"what-i-copied-out-last-january","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/?p=11","title":{"rendered":"What I Copied Out Last January"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>What will be happening fifty years from now that I cannot imagine? What will my great-great-grandchildren think of me when they walk in my house and read my books? When they try to piece together my life from my photographs and my legends?<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00e2\u20ac\u201d Ellen Gilchrist<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0<em> Falling Through Space: The Journals of Ellen Gilchrist<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I return to places where I used to be. I find my old personas. I try them on.<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d Ellen Gilchrist, as above<\/p>\n<p>Footfalls echo in the memory<br \/>\nDown the passage which we did not take<br \/>\nTowards the door we never opened . . .<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d T.S. Eliot<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0 from &#8220;Four Quartets&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Memory is alive, not static. You can&#8217;t simply figure out your past and be done with it. Each new experience, each recovered memory, illuminates and alters the narrative you tell yourself about your past and who you are.<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d Melanie Rae Thon<\/p>\n<p>During the [almost two years] I worked on the novel [<em>Iona Moon<\/em>], I also wrote five thousand pages in my journals.<br \/>\n\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00e2\u20ac\u201d Melanie Rae Thon<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>What will be happening fifty years from now that I cannot imagine? What will my great-great-grandchildren think of me when they walk in my house and read my books? When they try to piece together my life from my photographs and my legends? \u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00e2\u20ac\u201d Ellen Gilchrist \u00c2\u00a0 &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/?p=11\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">What I Copied Out Last January<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.silkentent.com\/OpenPage\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}